I was 22 when I raised my right hand and spoke an oath to my country. I said it with conviction and with great pride that I was doing something that was much bigger than I could ever imagine. I was swept up in patriotic fervor and a national irrational fear. It was 2003 and we were already deep into Afghanistan and the drumbeats of Operation Iraqi Freedom were drawing closer and closer. I signed up for the Air Force, going into the Delayed Entry Program in early March of that year. I figured if Bush is saying this is as terrible as it all sounds, I better get in to a job and service I want and not get swallowed up in a draft. That really was a fear of mine. I wasn’t sure how big of a mess we would get into.

At the Military Entrance Processing Station (MEPS), I was the oldest of our group so I was appointed the leader and responsible for these kids; hell, I wasn’t that far removed from them. Sure, I had a wife, a step-daughter and a baby on the way, but I was just as freaked out as the 17- and 18-year-old fellow recruits I was now leading. I failed my first assignment. I was handed all the recruits’ packets and told not to give to anyone. As the officer walked away, another came by and asked if I was in charge. “Yes, sir!” I replied. He immediately told me he needed to “inspect” the paperwork. I complied and was rewarded with 50 pushups. I was not even in Basic yet!

I served my time, with honor and vigor. While I went into the Air Force with some college and left my Technical School as an E-3, it was only one and a half years in at my first (and only) base stateside that I was eligible to test for an NCO promotion. I decimated the test. I was considered to be a ‘fast-burner’ and because I had no deployments or time-in-service. I had to score high on the test to be considered for promotion to E-5. I did it. It took a year for my line-number to be called to sew on my SSGT stripes and when I did, I was proud.

 

 

As luck has it, life turned for the worse. My wife cheated on me with my best friend, left for California with the kids and I struggled. I was deep in debt and worked hard to find a way out of the military, not because I didn’t like it but because the mere fact of being in I was going into about $1500 in debt a month because of child support. It was 2008 and we gained a new commander and some rules changed on how hardships were being processed. I finally was able to get out and at least slow the bleeding of my financial situation.

December, 2008, was absolutely terrible timing in terms of leaving the military. Jobs were nowhere to be found, even with a strong background in electronics, some leadership skills, and a work ethic. I struggled and used some GI Bill benefits to take nonsense classes at ITT Technical Institute. The benefits paid the bills, but ultimately were worthless. I had applications out to a 400 mile radius from my parents house in California, in which I figured was good enough to remain close to my boys. The FAA finally processed my application that I sent them at the beginning of 2009.

I was happy as can be. Out of work for a year and getting right back into what I did in the military. Did I mention that I fell love with my job? Working on radar, RF, electronics, troubleshooting, thinking outside the box, never knowing what the day would bring was an absolute dream. That is exactly what I would be doing the FAA.

Once here in Las Vegas, I applied my skills and talent I the same fashion as I did in the military. I quickly was promoted and then achieved a coveted spot as the System Performance Specialist. I was the lead-tech, the one who controlled the projects and oversaw the installation designs of a multi-million dollar Air Traffic Control Tower (ATCT) being planned and built. I brought in new and unique services that no other FAA site has and dealt with our stakeholders on a daily basis. I was the face of the FAA in Vegas on the technical side.

After time, I felt it was time to grow some more. I sought out leadership and management roles. I did Union business, I went to DC for leadership training, which was quite good, don’t laugh. I actively sought out mentors, inspired seasoned managers and took every opportunity I could. This took me away from my family for long stretches of time to better our situation so we could finally stop the paycheck to paycheck living and begin to enjoy the ride of life with some financial security.

 

 

The moment came when my longtime boss of 10 years announced her retirement. It was my opportunity to become the radar and automation manager. A spot I coveted and it was my bread and butter. I get to inspire my employees and share the love of the job to them, so they in turn become as enthusiastic as I am. Just as she is retired, March 2020 hits and the world goes insane. She stayed a bit, because she was able to squeeze out another year working from home. Smart gal she is.

After she retired, they put out a bid for the position for two 6-month details. A peer of mine took the first 6-months and then I was to take the second. As soon as I stepped into the role in August of 2021, they interviewed for a two-year stretch and I was selected for it. Then the mandates hit. At first, not bad. You can be vaccinated or not, just some different rules if the later. Yeah, I fell for that. All that changed when they made it all or nothing.

I began drafting this, to give to my boss and district manager. I also have a select few district managers that will get it also.

 

FAA Management, to include the COO of Air Traffic, Vice President of Tech Ops

I have given nearly 20 years of my life to this country. I have sacrificed my well-being, the threat of war looming over me while serving in the military. I have sacrificed years of my children’s lives to serve this nation. I have given up birthdays, first-steps, first-words, accomplishments, achievements and many other memories. I gave those up in the military and in Federal service willingly.

Then, as all this craziness has emerged, your answer is to rid of me? Someone who has the drive to be the best? To do what they can to learn and grow? You can take this job then if that is how you will treat me. I cannot believe I have given so much to be cast aside. I cannot fathom how many terrible employees you will continue to coddle and not be able to remove from Federal Service just because they have not done the great sin of refusing this edict. I know I am not the only one.

Sure, you will lose people that you have been dying to get rid of for decades and now you have your easy out, no long drawn out processes to go through. You will also be losing people passionate about their job. Passionate about safety of air travel. Passionate about providing a service to our fellow citizens.

You are doing nothing more than “following orders”. I was taught, that we don’t follow orders that are unconstitutional or orders that don’t sit well because they are just not right. I know that refusing has consequences and I am ready to face them. You have been salivating at the notion you get to cleanse the ranks of not bad employees, but employees that feel their personal convictions do not allow such heavy handed authoritarianism.

I will never step foot on a plane or seek the services of the FAA or Air Traffic again in my life because I have the knowledge that you have let good people go. People who just want to do their jobs and who know what the mission is. You all have lost that mission.

I am at peace with this. I will not be part of an organization who is doing this. You have taken an employee who pushed your mission, pushed your values, pushed your goals and turned them completely around.

Ungrateful,

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In the end, I know it is my choice. I know what I may be giving up. Like I said, I am at peace. I have a wonderful wife who supports me, family that already treated each other like lepers, and teenagers that have a good understanding of the personal choice in the matter. They get to see someone stand up for what they believe in, even if they themselves don’t believe it. It is by far the hardest decision I have ever had to make.